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I actually don't know what number film this is, as I can't remember exactly how many times I've made a serious attempt to lose weight, or what even counts since there were a couple I started without fully committing and fell off within the first month or less. I know it's at least the fourth, in that I can remember three individual successful attempts that all just ended abruptly when something in my life changed and I was unable to maintain discipline.
So three weeks ago I embarked on whatever number this is, let's call it VII because, sure, that's close enough. Not like anyone saw the last three in the theatre anyway.
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So there, blather blather. Potential updates in the future, or not, but friend me on MFP and/or fitbit and you can follow my progress there too, as well as shorter, quippier updates on my google plus page. I know, it's G+. It's got some uses, though.
So three weeks ago I embarked on whatever number this is, let's call it VII because, sure, that's close enough. Not like anyone saw the last three in the theatre anyway.
( Cut for those disinterested )
So there, blather blather. Potential updates in the future, or not, but friend me on MFP and/or fitbit and you can follow my progress there too, as well as shorter, quippier updates on my google plus page. I know, it's G+. It's got some uses, though.
I'm doing most of my posting on this over at my G+ account, because my inspiration to start up again came from there, but I'm reposting this one here too because a few people who read LJ but not G+ might be interested.
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I just realized that I can attribute at least part of recent success to my CPAP.
About a year ago, my cpap company switched me to a new mask, thinking I'd like it. I gave the mask a shot, and there were some aspects of the mask I really liked.
But it had a leak problem, that I kept thinking I could solve. Also, the way it attached to my face, put pressure on my sinuses in a way that I got used to but realized eventually was counter productive.
I used the mask for not quite a year before realizing that, over time, I was acting more and more like I had been when I wasn't using my CPAP.
Also, and I hadn't put two and two together, because I started paying attention to my weight after I switched back to my old mask.
But what really got me going dieting again was that I have gained 20 pounds since Sep, 2014, which seems ridiculous.
Except, if in fact I had been failing to adequately treat my apnea without realizing it, it's not ridiculous. It's frustrating, but not ridiculous.
It all goes to show that I need to do a better job of paying attention to things in the long term; I should've noticed and done something months before I actually did, but when things aren't instantaneous and the feedback connections are indirect, I have a tendency to miss them until they get really bad.
Which is what happened here; it got so bad that I was feeling miserable basically all the time.
This came up today because my cpap company called to replace my mask and I am going to be trying out one that's much closer to my old mask (which I'm using) and they promised a 30 day replacement guarantee if it doesn't work out. So we'll try it and see, because I really shouldn't be using a really old mask like I am.
But also.
TWENTY POUNDS in 9 months. Good grief.
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I just realized that I can attribute at least part of recent success to my CPAP.
About a year ago, my cpap company switched me to a new mask, thinking I'd like it. I gave the mask a shot, and there were some aspects of the mask I really liked.
But it had a leak problem, that I kept thinking I could solve. Also, the way it attached to my face, put pressure on my sinuses in a way that I got used to but realized eventually was counter productive.
I used the mask for not quite a year before realizing that, over time, I was acting more and more like I had been when I wasn't using my CPAP.
Also, and I hadn't put two and two together, because I started paying attention to my weight after I switched back to my old mask.
But what really got me going dieting again was that I have gained 20 pounds since Sep, 2014, which seems ridiculous.
Except, if in fact I had been failing to adequately treat my apnea without realizing it, it's not ridiculous. It's frustrating, but not ridiculous.
It all goes to show that I need to do a better job of paying attention to things in the long term; I should've noticed and done something months before I actually did, but when things aren't instantaneous and the feedback connections are indirect, I have a tendency to miss them until they get really bad.
Which is what happened here; it got so bad that I was feeling miserable basically all the time.
This came up today because my cpap company called to replace my mask and I am going to be trying out one that's much closer to my old mask (which I'm using) and they promised a 30 day replacement guarantee if it doesn't work out. So we'll try it and see, because I really shouldn't be using a really old mask like I am.
But also.
TWENTY POUNDS in 9 months. Good grief.
