Merlin of Chaos

Yeah, I'm having a tired week and writing titles is hard and once I started I kinda felt I had to keep doing it. Even though I'm really down into it now and there isn't really a good title every day.
Status: Up this week, but keeping at it. Runs going well, the rest less so.
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The scale is maddeningly stuck in the 268-269 range. I'm off the CPAP for either a month or forever, depending. And the running program is going well, with a bonus addition!
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Better late than never, I suppose.
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Currently at: 267.8, loss of 40 pounds.

As expected, the transition back has been fairly rocky. Mostly it's that with the throat, I now feel like I have a constant cold. I may, in fact, have a cold, as R has been hacking up a lung the last day or two, but it's not clear. I am, however, draining fluids from my sinus almost constantly. And my throat feels raw.
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I totally expected my weight to remain stable this week, or even go up a little.

Except, despite all my intentions of overeating, I appear to have continued losing weight. Yesterday I weighed in at 266.9 -- today I was up to 267.6. Both of those numbers represent a loss > 40 pounds. That's right, I earned my 40 pound weight loss badge while I wasn't even trying! I've been very spottily logging most days I only bother to put in my breakfast. Just enough to make sure I log into MyFitnessPal -- my streak is now 105 days, and I definitely want to keep that one alive.

Today marks the end of week 2 of post-op. Tomorrow marks the end of diet and exercise restriction, and I can theoretically go back to eating whatever I want and resume normal activity. That said, reality I think is going to impose a few more days. It's still really raw in a few spots, the scabs haven't entirely come off, an in some ways it's more sore than it was in the first week still, though at this point it's entirely on one side. There's one spot that is just taking longer to heal, it feels like.

Plus, my ENT said to stay off the CPAP for an additional week (sigh) and I think that while my apnea is severely reduced, there is still some going on. Mornings are still pretty hard.

Of course, mornings have always been hard for me, with or without the CPAP. It may just be me.

90 days! I hit the 90 day mark yesterday. It's been a pretty monumental week. I completed the conversion from contractor to full time at Apple, so now I'm an employee. I'm going to have my tonsillectomy tomorrow. I can't have ibuprofen or alcohol right now, though I slipped and forgot about a week ago and had a glass of wine. Whoops. Oh well.

I didn't lose any weight last week; in fact, I'm up about 2.5 pounds. That's in part because for the last few days I've basically suspended dieting, because tomorrow I have surgery and I don't want my body to be in a calorie deficit when that happens, because that could slow the healing process. So the diet will remain suspended for at least a week past the surgery.

That said, it may be difficult for me to actually eat much, so while suspended I may be dieting anyway.

In terms of progress, I'm down around 36 pounds (I guess back up 2.5 makes it much harder to say 'almost 40' like I could at 38.5), pants are still looser, but I still feel pretty overweight. And, I mean, I am. I'm still 90+ pounds away from my target weight, (though honestly I imagine I'd be fairly comfortable at 200, I picked my target weight because it is the top end of the BMI scale and it seems like a smart place to angle toward). My pants are looser but they're still big pants. My shirts are looser but I still wear a size with more than one X in it.

In other words, I still have a long way to go.

Right now my focus is to get through the healing process on the surgery, and then once again go back through the ramp up and get myself back on track.

If I can do that, then it is not unreasonable to be down around 245 pounds by New Year's. So that's my medium term goal. 245 pounds is where I was when I fell off Weight Watchers in 2006. It would be a good Christmas present to myself. It's also more or less the halfway point toward my goal.

That, of course, and not freaking out about undergoing surgery tomorrow. I suspect I will not sleep much tonight.

I'm on vacation, and expecting a bit of a stall, though hopefully not too much because this is a vacation that includes a lot of walking.

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Today is day 63, so just more than two months on the plan.
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Today I'm at 284.9, down a total of 22.9 pounds and I dropped another .5" on my waistline this time around.
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More blather!

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